My New Digital Camera

Now that I have a baby, taking pictures and recording videos are my favorite things to do.  It will bring back the memories that we did in the past.  Thanks to my friend, Ritchie who bought the digital camera in New York for me.  Having my own digital camera makes me feel very happy and satisfied because I can just click and click.  I can take pictures of my baby anywhere and anytime.

I feel sorry

Now that my baby is 15 months old, I think she thinks older.  She cries  if she wakes up early in the morning when I am going to work.  It really feels me sorry and thinks not to go to work but I must.  I don't know what she is doing at home.  Maybe crying, maybe sleeping or maybe playing.  Many things in my mind that I can't concentrate what I am doing.  I just pray and tell God to guide my baby at home and I hope the person who is taking care of her will treat her as if her own.

PLaying Her Small Piano

This year's Christmas is so memorable.  I bought my baby a small piano and she really loves it.  She plays it and when it sounds, she dances.  I'm ultimately happy when I see her dancing like the dance step of WAKA-WAKA song of Shakira.  I haven't bought a new battery yet.  Right now, I'm using the battery of our remote control and sometimes it lacks power.   I need to buy a battery which has a long power.

First 3 months of pregnancy

Babies are blessings from God and it's so wonderful that I have my own.  They are so beautiful.  You can't imagine why they live inside your womb, moving and growing there from a small pea to a big watermelon.

When I knew that I was pregnant, I was really bothered what to do with my life now that I was still studying that time but because of God's help and my friends too, I was happily carrying my baby inside me.  Life weren't easy that time because everybody was looking forward for me to graduate that year but I wasn't.  I still have 1 semester left to be graduated in college.  Life must go on, I said to myself.  My friends are there.  They helped my when I had my evening sickness, ate with me when I was hungry late at night and going out with them when they want to go to out to eat midnight snacks in a restuarant.

I remembered, when I didn't knew that  I was pregnant yet, we went to a disco house drinking beer and dancing all night long and acting single ladies on Valentine's Day.  That was funny. After such time I was so worried that I haven't had my period yet, so I've decided to test if I was pregnant.  I was so scared and nervous.  What if I'm pregnant? What will I do? Seconds later, I saw 2 red colors. My heart  beat faster and couldn't think straight.   I just went to work and told my co-workers about my condition.  They supported me all the way.  They didn't judge me or told negative things about me.  Because of that, I didn't think of something bad to my baby but after work, I drank alcohol just to have the guts to tell my ex-boyfriend that I was 3 months pregnant.

I called him but I wasn't sure if he would answer because maybe his ex-girlfriend was there with him and he really didn't.  So what I did, I called his stepfather and brother and they answered giving to him the phone and telling me that he was getting married with his ex-girlfriend who was pregnant too.  It was a sudden shock but what I could do to my life is to continue my pregnancy and live happily.