2nd term of pregnancy

At the second term of pregnancy, I already knew that I was pregnant.  Everything changed.  I didn't know what to do.  I was graduating in college in summer but a baby was inside my stomach.  It was really bothering me that I did not go to school because what I was thinking, I would not graduate so why would I go to school.  I did not took the final exams because of my condition those months.  I was depressed but thinking positively that the baby inside me is a blessing from God.  A gift that a woman would cherish of all her life.

I still stayed at the dormitory but everybody except of my true friends was looking at me as if I were a murderer.  So I decided to stay at my cousin's house.  It is a far from the office but I couldn't do anything but just to face all the challenges in life.  Staying there was fine at first until my cousin told me that there was a renting room near their house so I decided to find for a renting room in the city near at work.  After searching with the help of my bestfriend and a friend, we found a renting room.  It was just a walking distance to walk.  It was not easy because I need to pay for the rent, buy food for myself but God did not left me and stayed with me and provided me more sources of income and I survived.

Walking to work made me feel sick because the baby inside me was a little big.  There was one time that I couldn't walk because the baby seems to be going out from my vagina.  That was so difficult.  So  I need to ride a tricycle to go work.

 Going to a doctor alone made me feel sad but life is like that.  I chose this life so let it be.  Finding out that I had Urinary tract Infection made me feel so sad because it would affect my baby inside so they asked me to buy expensive medicine for the infection.  I bought it because it was for my baby's health.  Having a baby inside your stomach would make you feel dizzy and feeling weak.  At five months of pregnancy, the midwife told me that I was anemic, lack of blood.  They asked me to eat vegetables that would increase my hemoglobin count and of course I ate because it is for my baby.

Month by month, my stomach was really going bigger and bigger and that's a miracle that only God knows. 

My New Digital Camera

Now that I have a baby, taking pictures and recording videos are my favorite things to do.  It will bring back the memories that we did in the past.  Thanks to my friend, Ritchie who bought the digital camera in New York for me.  Having my own digital camera makes me feel very happy and satisfied because I can just click and click.  I can take pictures of my baby anywhere and anytime.

I feel sorry

Now that my baby is 15 months old, I think she thinks older.  She cries  if she wakes up early in the morning when I am going to work.  It really feels me sorry and thinks not to go to work but I must.  I don't know what she is doing at home.  Maybe crying, maybe sleeping or maybe playing.  Many things in my mind that I can't concentrate what I am doing.  I just pray and tell God to guide my baby at home and I hope the person who is taking care of her will treat her as if her own.

PLaying Her Small Piano

This year's Christmas is so memorable.  I bought my baby a small piano and she really loves it.  She plays it and when it sounds, she dances.  I'm ultimately happy when I see her dancing like the dance step of WAKA-WAKA song of Shakira.  I haven't bought a new battery yet.  Right now, I'm using the battery of our remote control and sometimes it lacks power.   I need to buy a battery which has a long power.

First 3 months of pregnancy

Babies are blessings from God and it's so wonderful that I have my own.  They are so beautiful.  You can't imagine why they live inside your womb, moving and growing there from a small pea to a big watermelon.

When I knew that I was pregnant, I was really bothered what to do with my life now that I was still studying that time but because of God's help and my friends too, I was happily carrying my baby inside me.  Life weren't easy that time because everybody was looking forward for me to graduate that year but I wasn't.  I still have 1 semester left to be graduated in college.  Life must go on, I said to myself.  My friends are there.  They helped my when I had my evening sickness, ate with me when I was hungry late at night and going out with them when they want to go to out to eat midnight snacks in a restuarant.

I remembered, when I didn't knew that  I was pregnant yet, we went to a disco house drinking beer and dancing all night long and acting single ladies on Valentine's Day.  That was funny. After such time I was so worried that I haven't had my period yet, so I've decided to test if I was pregnant.  I was so scared and nervous.  What if I'm pregnant? What will I do? Seconds later, I saw 2 red colors. My heart  beat faster and couldn't think straight.   I just went to work and told my co-workers about my condition.  They supported me all the way.  They didn't judge me or told negative things about me.  Because of that, I didn't think of something bad to my baby but after work, I drank alcohol just to have the guts to tell my ex-boyfriend that I was 3 months pregnant.

I called him but I wasn't sure if he would answer because maybe his ex-girlfriend was there with him and he really didn't.  So what I did, I called his stepfather and brother and they answered giving to him the phone and telling me that he was getting married with his ex-girlfriend who was pregnant too.  It was a sudden shock but what I could do to my life is to continue my pregnancy and live happily.